my testimonies..

well, today youth party, i being ask to share my testimonies .. lol, for me not so good.. so write here again to share with everyone.. hehe~

well, I always go to youth since my bridge class.. however, i stop to go to youth since form 4 because of tuition.
that time, i really don have peace and joyful in my life. every time exam, i will nervous.... attitude also not good.. keep comparing with other. every time take result also down even people think it's good.

then during semester break between my form 4 and form 5, i have a strong feel that i should go back to youth.. so i try to cancel all my tuition on saturday (malay and account). and i think if i really can't, than i go to tuition on saturday...

erm, so form 5 i back to youth la...
there i really very enjoy... learn a lot of things from sharing... tell my problem to ah hing goh goh , pastor fiona, or other youth... erm, i feel i have much joyful from God. there is one day my friend told me that , " siewlan, why you are not stressful like last time?" hey, thanks for asking me that. that time i just realise that i have God 's peace in my heart... even though i did not study a night before exam, but the result still ok. ( study not last minute) . thank you to my brothers and sister in Christ who keep praying for me always. teach me , guide me, advice me through God words... especially hannah and esther.. really very thank you to you.. i always disturb you when you are in holiday, teach me in study ... you 2 always encourage me with God's word.. send me message, every time i have problem, i will find  you ask for opinion... thank you also tell me some funny stuff in your life... make me relax... hehe.. well, God also heal my heart through song, i love to listen praise and worship song... <3 you know, cry in the Lord is the best to release my unhappiness.. thank you Lord for you know what i need, give me what i need. so i encourage every youth go to youth followship .. please don use tuition , study or other reason as excuse.. put God as your first...

NO JESUS, 

NO PEACE, 

NO JOY. 

【巨蟹座的1封信】

hi... it's me again here.. i'm sure most of you will ask why i'm while i'm taking my SPM examination... well, i just here to share a article which i think is truth and i get it from facebook. hehe~

巨蟹座~
逃避是他们的习惯 他们对自己渴望的东西总是先退到一边 似乎毫不关心然后突然扑上去。 他们没有很强的适应能力 却有天生的领悟力。他们以自我为中心 懂得自我保护。他们最害怕孤独 但又注定了孤独。他们有很多秘密 他们把真实的自己藏于夜半的寂静和午间笑声的明朗中。巨蟹经常会说“我觉得”“我想” 他喜欢用敏锐的第六感来表达想法和感情。不喜欢复杂的环境 他喜欢呆在安静的地方做他喜欢的事 喜欢跟志同道合的人组成一个小圈子自娱自乐。巨蟹座善良 体贴 不计较 会细心的记住好朋友的生日。或许多愁善感 但仍然会在最难过时给你微笑.

巨蟹是十二星座中最为恋家的星座 他们是现代的模范伴侣 他们无论走到哪里都不会忘记家里有人在等着自己 遇到巨蟹座的恋人是最大的幸福。巨蟹是一个很感性的星座 一旦陷入爱情就会想要时时刻刻跟对方黏在一起。所以对痴情的巨蟹来说 每次结束一段感情 都是最痛苦的经历。

巨蟹天生悲观 脾气古怪 会突然爬进保护性的壳里。在受伤后他很少反击 只会放弃 逃避是他的习惯 他对自己渴望的东西总是先退到一边 似乎毫不关心 然后突然扑上去。 他很念旧 喜欢旧东西。他最注重的就是安全感 希望被保护 却常常是一个人。他希望有属于自己的空间 喜欢独处。

巨蟹不喜欢受别人限制 他不喜欢任何东西过于圆满 对他来说有缺陷的人生才是完美的 缺陷是灵魂的出口。他的快乐都是微小的事 比如看见一只小猫或小狗。收拾干净自己的家 看着在花瓶里有水珠的香水百合。。。很多巨蟹喜欢顾影自怜 喜欢自己舔伤口。他心里想什么从来不说 别人也猜不到。

巨蟹座的人有包容心 一般不会为了一点芝麻小事而耿耿于怀 具有容人的雅量 很少拒人于千里之外 再加上其有礼貌 善交际 富幽默感之迷人个性及对人道主义的尊崇 会有许多朋友。事实上巨蟹座的人经常会在强悍的外表下 隐藏着一颗柔弱的内心 TA就像这星座的表征－－螃蟹。

巨蟹总说着无所谓的话 喜欢瞎想 尤其是让人流泪的情节 巨蟹夏天露出皮肤时厌恶被陌生人触碰到 在公车上最为显著 巨蟹讨厌装的人 但有时候自己也不得不装 还装得挺真的 巨蟹笑起来完全不顾形象 任凭周围怪异的眼光也不会收敛 巨蟹的心思很简单 不喜欢勾心斗角。

well, this is me.. however, i'm not because of superstitious of horoscope... cause i know as a christian, we should not believe horoscope.. however, this just a article which is saying me.. hey it's in chinese.. if you don know chinese, use google translate ya.. hehe~ thanks for read this and understand me... =) i should off now. bye.. see you after my examination~ ^^ God Bless~

很矛盾。。。

trial exam 已经完全过了，
说真的，
我非常不满意。
竟然每一张paper 
都说难~
剩下一个月，就要靠SPM，
我和好友都非常害怕，
还没准备好。><
感谢主，给我看到了一节经文。

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.-Joshua 1:9 

最近，忍不住，我又找回他了。
好像没有当初那么尴尬。
奇怪的是，
他那天约我和‘星星‘ 出。
谢谢你给我美好的回忆。
迁就我， 
去我最喜欢的咖啡厅，
喝我最爱的巧克力。 
其实我老早想约你的，
在你离开之前留下一个回忆，
但，
想下，
还是不要。
因为你有了女友。


你说的对，
那天我是在吃醋，
eh ~! 我也是普通女生好不好。
被你试探了，开心吗？ ==
但，我一点都不觉得是试探，
感觉上，很真。
无论如何，
我帮你， 
我不可以因为自己的想法，
不让你认识女生~ =）


刚才跟你聊了下，
知道你星期五又离开，
想着，想着。。。 
考完试，
你也是要离开， 
很不舍得。
但你说，你回去kk读书，
又让我笑了，
因为，我也打算去那里读书。


其实，
我不应该，
超级不应该 ！
常常和你聊天
因为，
你已经有了女友。
我应该想下你和女友的感受，
对不起。。 。 。 
尽量不和你聊。 =）


我说我啊，
都已经什么时期了，
想这些 不该想的东西？？ ！ 
读书啦！！ 
不要胡思乱想。 
把神放在第一位，
将自己的读书荣耀神。
加油！！
继续依靠神吧。=) 

奇妙的感觉..

啊~~！
为什么我会突然对他起了一个特别感觉呢？
还觉得满不可思议的。
以前觉得别人搞姐弟恋， 还蛮怪的。
但，自己却喜欢上年纪比我小一年的。（还好他比我成熟）
所以说嘛， 爱情是没有绝对的。
话说回头，
那晚，我还蛮羞的。
我竟然可以发那封信息给他。
搞什么啊？
傻了吗？
还蛮难想象他读那封信息的样子。
笨的我，竟然不管三七二十一发了给他。
得到的，是我预料中的答案。 哈哈~
但，我还是想说声谢谢你。
因为，
你让我说出心中难开口的话，
还安慰我。
让我知道，我也有有点~
' if i don have gf i will think about you '
无论这些话是真的，还是安慰的话。
还是很谢谢你说出这番话。
谢谢你取代了之前我喜欢五年的那位男生~
无论如何~
我觉得应该要等很久，才会有另外的男生取代你~
除非。。 我们。。。。 （别想了，不可能的事）
我们还是好朋友吧。=)
希望见到你，我不会有尴尬的感觉。嘻嘻。
我们好象以前那样玩吧， 好吗？^^

1/7/2011

hahaha...
how come today i start with hahaha???
usually today is a day i scare most..
last year scare until i go to counselling.. lol
ask what should i do...

last year, i remembered what stupid thing i did...
cause last year result is the worse result i get..
i not dare told my dad came to school and took  report cert.
until i wrote a memo put on my dad table ( brother told me when i'm child xD)
then i early school early in the morning..
at school scare dad don know what i write..
call he..
ask he came take my result..
then the calling end up with scold by he.. ><'''
at school, he could not find me..
call me..
meet he..
being scold again.. .. lol
i really need to be scold de la..
haiz...
inside the class.. i scare until the tears rolling in my eyes.. ops~
then , dad ask me, " you get what position?" <--- he always ask this. lol~
2nd~( but min mark only 63)
i scare he disappointed to my result..
cause  he used a RM300 ++ for my tuition only.. ><''' adui~
luckily, miss lim said a lot of good words for me.. thanks~~ x 1000


but, today just feel a bit scare ..
...
don know what teacher will told my dad.
your daughter very talkative, naughty ~
always careless in test..

scare the respond when my dad look at my report card.

siewlan you are so timid.. =='''

that day i told my dad come and take my report cert.. (usually i told dad at last minute)
then back to my room..
after no even 30 second he calling me at living room..
i out...
"which position you get" (this question again) lol ==
4th.. (he look satisfy)
then i back to my room again..

today.. i woke up at 515..
lol, because of an essay needed pass up today..
i rush and rush.. search information at the internet...
then 630 dad wake up.. (so early)
at 7 he knock my door..
are you wake up..
prepare now..
gonna out??
yesterday i said out at 8 de wor.. ==
aiya.. whatever la.. i continue simply wrote my essay .. then prepare..
"faster, gonna traffic jam !"

then i request go to bandar ramai ramai to have my breakfast
a place i live during my childhood..
miss this place very much...

after that.... reach school le...
wa...
started scare..
who will meet my dad??
miss liau??
or cikgu nor azian??
actually i hope is cikgu nor azian..
cause i scare miss liau will tell my dad that i go tuition and home by bus.. ( i lie my dad friends fetch me)
then i scare once i sit down..
miss liau quotes with came out
hahahaha xD

aiya... really kena miss liau..
scared..
4 D in my report card--> not toto 4D ><''
one of the subject is bm..
haiz.. dad disappointed again.. sorry~
then he realise that i did not tuition bm...
cause i don very like the place.. ==

then..miss liau  praise me wor...
she said i'm very hardworking..
what??? very hardworking
wa... am i??
i don think so..
then my dad told miss liau his difficulty..
ya dad.. thanks a lot..
i really so sorry for the result..
i promise.
when i grow up..
i will repay you..
miss liau and every of the reader will be the witness..
and 1 more. very important..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you,dad~! 1/7/2011 

YESH!!! finally i can do it...!!

siewlan just back from jpj again..

hmm~

this times~

GOOD NEWS !! ---> PASS~~ 

yea...

i no need back here la.. xD 

finally I no need think about JPJ things already =D

less 1 burden~

meet karlos just now,
first time i talk to he leh,
haha~
how was his JPJ leh??
i think should be ok de...
cause he show me "good" before he leave.. =)

but, my friends, please don ask me fetch you first ya..

actually my driving skill still not very good la... (don want send you all to hospital) 

just now the officer nice, that's why give me pass... 

help me press the brek lagi.. (thank you thank you) 

hehehe~~ 

just now my foot shaking when i drive inside.. 

this time very tention.. ==

wait siewlan 's skill good enough then sure fetch you all de.. =) 

as what i say, i think just now i should be fail gua.. 

thanks God for giving me a Good Officer.. ^^ 

and good teacher , cause he keep teach me and did not charge me
although i over few hours there.. ^^ 

and thank you friends for pray to me.. ehe~ 

siewlan appreciate it ! 

ALL THE GLORY TO ALMIGHTY GOD~ 

failure is mother of success~

siewlan just back from JPJ test~ 
1 word FAIL... =( haha~ lol~
that's why now i'm writing blog, write out all my unhappiness~ hehehe~ 
haiz... why i will fail ?! 
i really don't know why my car engine will off when i at tiga penjuru. arg ! 
outside road.. Jalan B... FAIL! yer ! 


actually i'm not really unhappy, i still can laugh although i'm fail just now.. hehe~ 
ngek ngek ngek.... 
not because i'm sot la... 
err, because God give me joyful ma.. =) 


but, this time test got much  improvement compare to last time.. hehehe~ v^.^v


FAIL?? so what?! ( sound like very proud == lol) 
I will NEVER give up ! 
i go to test again on thursday, ^^
i skip my BC class. ><''
but, that day give back test paper,
i really want to know how was my BC,
feel it will be not good .. =( 


sorry ah, my friends and family, 
i disappointed you all again.. 
waste $$ .. adui, ><'' 
pray for me for thursday.thank you =D
heheehe~
siewlan JIA YOU ah ! 
thursday MUST PASS!!!! 
by God, i can do it. yo ! 
GOD BLESS ~ ^^

simple man do simple thing~

Hi~ my dear friends, long time no see, hehe~ it's a long time i did not update my blog, cause, busy and lazy~ haha~ 

Today I heard a story from Jian Cheng goh goh blog, and I really like this story~ 

This is the story,

One day, a business man meet a pastor and talk to the pastor.

Business man:” pastor, I don’t want to be a Christian.”

Pastor:” why? what make you think so?”

Business man:” you know, being a Christian is very hard. Every time I saw those Christian walk at the street and ask people to believe God. I don’t like to do that. I don’t like to do evangelistic work.”

then the pastor tell him:” no no no. you just come. come and join the fellowship. you do not need to go out the street and ask people to believe God.”

then the business man do like what the pastor said. he go to the church and listen to the gospel. after he go home he feel very happy.

one day, the business man saw his friend. then the business man tell him:” ei, you know? recently i attended a church and become a Christian. you want to join me?”

Without notice the business man has actually already did an evangelistic work.

Actually this story is tell us about a Christian not necessary to go out to the street and ask people to believe but to live out the glory of God. evangelistic actually is a very enjoyable work. You won’t feel stress when you are doing it. 


share the story, if you like it.

recent me...

2011~
now only beginning of year~
i started feel tired,,
very tired...
can i stop these things..
concentrate my study?
hmmm~ NO!
cause i enjoy what i have done recently...
but i don know manage my time..
that's why make me so tired.. hehehe~

ok~ what i do currently is.........
__________________________________________________________________________________

part 1~
chinese new year ma..
my early planning is stay home study~
but, i happy that,,
they all did not forget me..
they call me out..
gather..
i sure out la~ <3

at ah han 's house bai nian~~~ haha~

making wish~ just a tradition..

我们放孔明灯~ ^^

next, we gather at hawaii restaurant... ^^

haha~ this is the first time i meet anne..

tell you all..

she very cute.. haha~

and kent go to kk for 神学.. 

hmm.. may God grand you wisdom and strength.^^

they gonna go another place for their future study...
can i follow?
i dislike the word "miss"
sometimes quite suffer..
i very touching...
although i'm not same group with them..
not same class...
not same standard..
they did not treat me as outside people..
they treat me very nice...
keep laughing with them.
hahaha xD

besides gather with them...
i have out with my church member leh... hehehe~

at pastor fiona house... ^^ 

at ah hing goh goh's house...

it's a great time gather brother and sister in Christ~

because God give us joy, peace and love.. ^^

hehehe~ <3 love my church ji mei...

these were the food that shared by church member.. 

and it is DELICIOUS~~ some are homemake.. ^^

the church canteen look so crowded... 

we are BIG family~~ 

after this... me and my church ji mei,(sister) go my primary teacher's house...^^ 

hehehe xD

this is the 爱心angpau from my teacher...

she wish us 快高张大，学业进步~ thanks~ ^^

PESTA ANGPAU !
2/14/2011

wow, so beautiful design.. hehehe~ 

the performance ^^
nice!! ^^

like mother like son
wow.. he is so cute~
hope my future husband also cute like he... hahahaha~

during chinese new year.. 

we also celebrate miss lim 's birthday...

hmm...

she was shock ...

cause we give her a big supprise.. 

hehehe~ xD

*********************************************************************************

part 2 ~

sport day...

hmmm...

i'm being chosen to join 4x400 and 4x100...

hmmm...

i just join la...

but due to i did not go to practice..

cause, have tuition...

so, teacher cut out my name...

hehehe~
whatever la...

but another things that i scare, tension , stress....
is gb and bb drill...
this year is my last year...
i really hope my team get top 3~
hmmm....
what i can do is... God decide it...
what God give me... i need to accept...=)

yes! this what i want...

they drill seriously...~

the NCO boys help me a lot in doing spanduk~ thanks for your co-operation...

draft only... hehe~

the real 1..

design by 1st sandakan NCO..

i give little help and opinion..

hehehe~

then after school hav drill practice.....

bacause we know, 

we must practice hard to get good result...

but, i'm tired...

i can't sleep after school..

cause.. 

it's too noisy~

hehe~

then...

those boys playing darts~

woohoo~

nice !

i enjoy it...

and i forget my tiredness .. 

hehe..

thanks~

shot by me~ hahaha~

during the competition~ 

a message to my member..

THANK YOU! 

~thank you for you all co-operation~

~thank you Christila powerful prayer...

~thank you captain ben help us a lot..

~thank you officer alex teach us a lot of things.

~thank you teacher adviser 's care..

~ thank you 1st Sandakan Boys' Brigade and 4th Sandakan Girls' Brigade..

~THANKS GOD.. BEACAUSE I HAVE ALL OF YOU...

~THANKS GOD FOR LEAD AND CARE US SO MUCH...

WELL DONE!

1st Sandakan Boys' Brigade and 4th Sandakan Girls' Brigade.. you all done a good job!
we get 4th in the competition..
i great to hear that...
this you because of you all .
we get 4th !
let us try again next year... =)

SORRY!

sorry for i don know become a leader...

sorry for i don have patient...

sorry for i keep give scolding..

sorry for my mistake that i have done...
and a SORRY to someone... very sorry... forgive me please... 

first day of form 5~ღ♥

today i slept at around 130am.. so late ><..
as jing jing say - we used too late sleep during holiday~ so, it hard for us to sleep early~
ya, this is right~i agree~
then today i wake up after alarm( i think i did not heard the alarm sound==, thanks God, i did not over sleep,haha~)
one of the thing i dislike wake up early is... it's cold.. ><''
last time, before i asleep, there have raining cats and dog.. until noon still got raining, but not as heavily like the midnight~
still same, follow cikgu chin's car go to school. just realise that, i left a year, a year i wake up early go to St Michael. i should appreciate? or happy? haha~
when i reach the school, i just realise that, i'm a senior this year. hahaha~ no people can bully me.(especially 2010 5 kreatif)  haha~ just joke ya~
but i really miss them so much.. miss their "yii, cheapnya". don know why, i look at other people, i thought is them. but actually is not them. if  i not mistaken, i almost have call wrong people 2 times(peiyeng) ==
i hope to meet them.. damn miss you all. 
then i enter my new class, haha~ early birds. hehe~ so i can get a nice place for me and jennay. haha~ 

Assembly
today assembly,not really bad, at least still in the control. as a start, we sing the Negaraku, Sabah Tanah Airku , and        School song without music. lol.
listen some announcement.
1)4 teacher have been transfer to other school. i will miss them. ><
2)Cikgu Yusof be the head of discipline.
3)Pmr result
4)Wednesday have meeting for the sport day.
5) we have new canteen  la.. yea~ ^^ & our old canteen will the koperasi and classroom.
6) most shock, we gonna use thumb print to take attendance. wa, our school so in.. 
*** today i saw Mr Leong smile, so cute.. haha~ 


English lesson
hmmm, still Madam Shanti teach us~ ^^ i love english lesson, haha~  the lesson is not boring at all.just like teacher conversation during the lesson. today i learnt a lot of things. 
future plan. what will you be after 5 years/10 years/15 years? haha~ 
"reach the star" i learnt this proverb in this lesson too. this a meaningful proverb. hehe =) this year, my star is beat down the first in our class. and get full As in SPM. erm, you think it is easy. honestly, i also feel this very hard, but " reach the star". i must aim higher, so i can take a higher result. so now, i need overcome my laziness. and fun out mu planing. haven't write it down, just have a lot of planning in my mind. so, i hope i plan my work, and i also i work my plan. =) with God nothing is IMPOSSIBLE.


math lesson
erm, still Mr Chin Fha also. hohoho. thanks God. what a good lesson today. he tell us the history of Math... haha~ interesting, ^^ besides, he also told us a little bit of how computer chip function. he say, if he only teaching without tell us the application of daily life, the lesson is boring. Ya, i agree, it's true. although i not very understand at the beginning, but slowly, i get what he means. hehe~ enjoy today math lesson too. ^^


recess
hahaha~ the first thing of cause go to visit our new canteen, haha~ nice. Mr Leong say, we gonna add some new table and chair. hehe.. new year, everythings also new? haha~ finally school run our "0 plastics" last time we use plastic bag to put in our food. now, we use plate, totally no plastics bag. St Michael love Earth, hahaha~ so, we don want produce so much plastics. hehe~ 
then, that CKY ask me help he ask Miss liau about tuitipn, sometimes, i quite lazy help he. cause he really..... (i don know how to say ) lol == but, today i help he, not really help he, cause i also wanna find Miss liau. haha~ then i receive a good news from her. she sdid not say out, but, i get her hint. haha~ i wait for she say "makan tahi" to me every lesson. haha~ ^^


chemistry 
hahaha~ actually after recess was add math, but, Mr chong busy..hahaha~ no add math.. good news.. haha~ can less more homework. and the smart Miss Ng, she came into our class. so no need stay at school at 1230pm. she take mr chong class. haha~ thanks God for everythings~ hehe. i also love she teachind, especially her respond when we answer wrongly. haha~ her face really look funny. ^^


biology
still miss wong teach us. hehe. erm, don know what she feel when she take back our class and teach bio. always ask " any question " and we all say no. haha~ she say " VERY GOOD" but actually she want us ask question. hehehe~ her teaching also funny base on last year. so i hope this year, her teaching still funny. hohoho... 

after school
then we end up our class lesson. am ia too enjoy the class? until i felt the class end up very fast. haha~ love this feeling. and, hope the spirit of learning can keep it. at least until finish SPM. haha~ ><'' 


in the bus, i take out bio text book and read, cause i can sure , i'm more to zzz at home. haha~ no time study, appreciate the free time. lol. and once i reach the home. i cook. then,,,,,,,,,, I, SLEEP. haha~ == so tired, i sleep from 230-6pm. maybe i sleep last last night. so, hope this won't happen always ya.


then, 7pm go for bio tuition, really feel sleepy. lol. =='' thanks God, He give me power, make me did not fall asleep like last year, haha~ xD 
when the tuition end, hey, it's raining heavily.. == how i gonna walk home. haha~ how lucky am i, i have a friend who live same place with me, and her father take her home. then she ask me follow her. haha~ thanks a lot.. although we are not close, but you help me. hehe~ on the way we back home, really excitng, keep running. haha~ ^^  finally, she lend me her umbrella and she share with her dad. a thousand thanks from me. =)


so as a conclution of my diary today, a enjoyable day, all things should thanks God, may the glory to the God. and pray that God grant me wisdon in my studies. besides, i also pray that, God give me power to face any problem in my life. thanks God. ^^